"If you're looking for stability,you've come to the wrong place."

My mouths shooting blanks
Situation's unbearable
I've grown venereable
So anyone is free to walk right in
My temple's been invaded and there's nobody guarding it

All over this lonely life
What's so wrong with being all alone?
Alone's the only way I've ever known.

[Bayside - Devotion and Desire]
Dark days are ahead for me.

I didn't know just what I was getting into when I agreed to date Will. Part of me is compassionate and wants to give him love,but the rational part of me knows I need to move on. He's on copious amounts of lithium and abilify,and I know if I decide to marry this guy,he'll be the same way he is now. We talked the day before last and he told me,after I said,"I thought I'd find some kind of stability in you.";"If you're looking for stability,you've come to the wrong place." In all his mental fog,it's the most profound thing he's ever said. I want to stay because I'm lonely,but I want to leave because I'm miserable. Who knows what I'll do in the days or months to come.